Undetered

Okay I have recommitted myself to being a novelist. I love books. The smell of a new book, the hard binding being bent that first time you bury yourself in the story. I walked into a bookstore this past weekend and longed to walk to the romance section and see my book sitting on the shelf for all the world to see. Being published was just part of the dream of being a writer. I want to see my books on the shelves of every bookstore and maybe even Wal-mart one day [hey they get enough of my money, I should get a little cluck for my buck]. I want to one day see New York Times Best Seller or something along that affect that you see on so many wonderful author's books. If I give in and give up then I have failed to pursue a dream and I don't want anymore regrets in my life. So many times I look back and say If Only I'd Done This... I don't want to say that about writing. It is something that has been in my heart for close to two decades [yes I'm old LOL]. I want my kids to be able to see that their mother accomplished something important in life, besides helping them grow into amazing human beings. I don't want them to say it is okay if they quit trying to achieve a dream because mom did. There are far too few role models in this world and I want more than anything to be my kids best role model. I refuse to give in! I refuse to give up! Watch out publishing world Paula is about to come full force. :) Now where is the Red Bull and hordes of chocolate??