Do you ever wonder...

if God really exists? I believe in him, talk to him even. Don't go to church, but He is in my life. Mainly I feel like He is a high and mighty observer who likes to screw with my life to see just how much stress I can take while he gets a wonderful laugh. Kind of like my life is His soap opera. These are the Days of My Life!! Wednesday I found out I am losing my job next Wednesday. That night I bought chinese food. My fortune from my fortune cookie read, "Something unusual will happen at work next week." And whammo! it hit me like a ton of bricks. God was making sure I knew he was getting a good laugh at my expense. Of course, now I have the fun adventure ahead of me of trying to find a job that makes even close to what I have been making in this job for three and a half years. Christmas and my son's 12th birthday are coming and I am going to be out of work. That sucks! I feel so many different emotions. Funny that even knowing things are about to get extremely difficult I have felt a kind of release. I love the guys I worked with, but I really hated my job. So maybe it is a plus. Maybe I can finally find a job that I enjoy going to everyday. And God, if you're reading this blog, EASE UP okay I can handle alot, let's face it I am a woman and a wife and mother, but for goodness sakes enough is enough. :) God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the WISDOM to know the difference. Amen.