NaNoWriMo has Officially Began...

and all I can think of right now is how much I want to sleep and dream of a better life than this one. Have you ever had one of those days when you just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel for all the dark clouds looming waiting to hit you in the butt with a stray bolt of lightening??? My head is so stopped up with sinus drainage , my eyes are watering more than the Niagara Falls, and my husband is trying to force a new dog into my home. I lost my dog 3 months ago today as a matter of fact, to kidney failure. And although I feel for this dog, it needs a good home, I can't help but think of how much I miss Reese, my chihuahua. Besides the owner wants $200 for him and we just don't have that to throw away on a dog right now. I know I should be concentrating on writing my novel for NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month), I have the drive, just no story is jumping out at me. I know, I know, the purpose of this experiment each November is just to get you writing, but without having some kind of direct path in mind how do you begin?? I failed to meet this challenge last year and I don't like to fail....at anything. I long to see my name on books lining the shelves of every bookstore chain in the world and yet I can't pick up a pen and put it to paper to achieve that goal. Shameful, I know. To be so selfish, to want something for myself, but I do....I want it. Something that could be just my accomplishment. Maybe someday I can do just for me and feel okay about it. Until then I serve my family. My husband, son, daughter, dogs, cats, mother, father, anyone who needs my help, I'm there. But one day, maybe......

The Dawn of a New Day

So here it is...far, far too long since I wrote here. Amazing how time flies by without you realizing it. Life has a way of taking over and there you sit not doing a damn thing it seems. I've plotted. I've downloaded pictures for all my Wolfe Investigations Inc. heroes and heroines. They look gooooood too. I've built backstories and character worksheets, even written a little something here or there, but haven't finished a dang thing in the past year and a half. My talented sister (webmistress) created a seal for my WII series. She's awesome. And yet I haven't finished one dang book in that series even though I love those characters. I think I get upset because I don't write in order. the scenes jump out at my at different times and then I string them together to make the story. Night Stalker was the only thing I wrote from beginning to end. Maybe that is why that one is finished and published. Broken Cowboy is still being perfected so that I can try it at some other publishers this year, hopefully. Motivation.............what's my Motivation???????? Ever think that pulling your hair out by the roots is a good thing? On the home front all is well. Now on to the book front.........

MIA...but I think I'm back

Man, I can't believe it has been 3 months since I last blogged. So much has been going on in "real" life, that my secret obsession has fallen to the wayside. My 12 year-old son pitched a no-hitter a couple games ago. Our only win this season. I have been searching high an dlow for a job that I could do from home. I don't know the whole hustle and bustle is beginning to wear on me. I got a different job, working for any attorney and I like the job and the people I work with just fine, I just...I don't know I yearn to stay at home and relax for a while. To have the whole day to myself to write and craft something. It just seems like my body can't find the energy to get into writing after a long day of doing computer work at my "real" job. And books don't write themselves. I have squeezed in some reading on the craft lately. Even spent 7 whole hours today doing nothing but lying on my couch reading. I felt kind of guilty cause I knew there were surely more important things to be doing today, but couldn't muster up the ability to care. I cleaned my house for the most part yesterday and anything else could wait until later. Probably could have spent that time writing but my son and his friend had the computers tied up with playing on the internet and who was I to shove them off. I am setting myself a goal. Seems I never get anything truly done unless I make a list or set a goal, so here it is. My goals for the rest of 2007. Goals 1. Finish writing School of Hard Knocks. (It's been far too long since I touched that story) 2. Create character profiles, complete with pictures for all characters of Wolfe Investigations Series books. (Have fallen in love with my characters and their storylines again, but I want to make sure they are well rounded characters) 3. Submit School of Hard Knocks and hopefully a completed Wolfe Investigations 1: Statue of Osirius to both critique partners. (Jenna and Crystal, I knowits been a while since you guys got anything from me) 4. Last but not least, See if Night Stalker can be reworked and maybe added to, then submit to a new publisher after contract with New Concepts runs out this year. (need some promotional items and a few contests to go with this). (Still love this story!!) I'll be a writer yet!

Unproductive New Year

Okay so I have heard several authors who get angry because they lost their hard earned work because of a stupid computer...never thought I would be one. My laptop had a faulty battery or some such nonsense and my husband ended up having to reboot the whole thing(some nerdy computer blah). I therefore lost all my lovely work that was on the computer. Have lots of stuff on jump drives and disks, but had been writing here and there, little by little on a story called Bride For Hire. You guessed a wonderful 2 chapters disappeared into the great beyond. Everything else I think is recoverable because I am usually a write on paper then type it up kind of girl, but for some reason I wasn't with this story. I thought it was pretty wonderful stuff too. So where am I??? Back to the drawing board if I can ever get my mind free from all the life stuff going on. Buying a house...finding a new job....raising kids and trying to figure out why I work so hard and never have time to relax. Well to writing! I will remember to back up on jump drives from now on. I learn my lessons teh first time around. Or at least I hope I do.